Ruthie Is On the Move

It’s been a really rough month for me as I watched my dear uncle in the final stages of brain cancer and we had his funeral this past weekend. I don’t say that to start my post with something sad, but because there is a lesson to be learned from him. He was the example of living life to the absolute fullest. He has been to all 50 states and almost 100 countries. He was a fixer and a doer and he was a true inspiration for living in the moment. Life is too short so reach for the stars, make new dreams, and always work to better yourself. That’s what he did. What are your goals and what are you putting off that you could be starting today? If he were here today, he’d be asking us what we were waiting for. For me, this week, it was about getting moving and getting back to what I love. What do I love? Singing and dancing. Pretty simple. I love doing it at the same time even.

Many women can attest that one of the hardest things about pregnancy and delivery is the weight loss after. I decided to do a third journey only a few months after I last delivered.  I am a good 20+ pounds from where I was before I started my 2nd journey, and sadly I can’t just blame pregnancy for all of it. I have multiple jobs right now and I mostly sit doing them all……or at least used to! At IARC, where I spend most of my days, I got an elevated stand to put my monitors and keyboard up higher so I can work standing up and occasionally dance (only been caught a few times so far!). I also have a yoga ball, simply fit board, music, and pure desire.

So many people make excuses for not doing one thing or another and I try to never do that. It would be easy to say because I work more hours than anyone I know, that it’s an excuse for me not getting at least 10,000 steps a day. It’s only halfway through my day on Friday, but since Monday I’m at 49,000 steps so far. A far cry from when I used to do 30,000 a day every single day, but I am on the move and I am not stopping. I am not doing this simply for the pounds leading to transfer. When I am moving, I feel better all over and it changes me inside and out. I plan to walk and dance my way through every day for the next year. Heck, I was 9 months pregnant, overdue, and still did more than 5 miles one day back in February so I got this!

I go in for my medical screening on Monday in San Diego so transfer is not far behind. I’m excited for that, the transfer itself, getting to know my IP’s more, and so many other great things that lie ahead in my future. I don’t know what kind of weight loss I may achieve or what goals I will be obtaining in the next few months, or how many times I will get knocked down in the process. I do know I am striving to be the best I can be in every aspect of my life and that’s all I can do. Thank you uncle Jerry for touching so many lives and for especially touching mine. I’m not making excuses. I am back, better than ever, and stronger than ever. I am on the move!  If anyone reading this is in need of an exercise partner, someone to hold you accountable, or someone to compete with on Fitbit, I am here. (

“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass. It’s about learning to dance in the rain.” ~Vivian Greene


The dreaded injections


The next step in my journey is here, I honestly think it’s the one I dread the most, INJECTIONS!  So why do surrogacy then, you may ask?  “To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world”.  All it takes is a simple act of kindness to change the world, and that is what I try to teach my children.

Just the other day my 6 year old was watching me give myself a shot in my stomach (the Lupron injection) and she was so amazed at what I was doing because she knows mommy is helping the intended parents have a baby.

The Lupron needle is a small fine needle that is injected subcutaneously, in the fatty layer between the skin and muscle.  You must inject the needle straight in at 90 degrees to the level of the abdomen and do not hesitate, like I did the first time.  Otherwise you could experience redness, possibly some itching, a raised welt, and or bruising.  Fortunately for me all of those symptoms went away within an hour, but I certainly learned my lesson about hesitation.

In addition to the Lupron, there are two other injections that I have yet to start taking that are injected intramuscular, located in the muscle on your back side.  This would be Delestrogen (a form of estrogen) and Progesterone in oil (PIO).  The most important thing to know about these two medications is to remember to change the needle before injecting yourself!!!  These needles are very large and wide and this is to pull the oil based medication easily from the vile into the syringe.  The needle that you would use for the injection is a bit thinner and if there is no hesitation and it’s injected at a slower pace, you should have no problems.  I know many women who can and have done it themselves, more power to them, but nope not me! As funny as this may seem I have actually called a few of my friends and asked for their help with these injections.  One of my friends has helped me before with these injections and the other has not. We shall see how entertaining this all becomes when it’s time for those shots!

One of the intended parents had told me, “Can’t believe you’re injecting yourself (I don’t know if I could). So brave and fearless! :)”. Well I can’t exactly say I’m brave and fearless, but I can say to one person I may be the world and that’s all that matters to me at this moment in my journey.

Until next time ~ Tina